Today I was told I was brave, but it didn’t have anything to do with the jump I just made from the Kawarau Bridge. I was having a lovely conversation with a young couple from the UK who both recently quit their jobs and have been traveling the globe. I thought they were the brave ones for taking that leap (I still had a job when I booked this trip), but I was given credit for going it alone (apparently she had to drag her boyfriend with her, around the world is quite a long drag).
Traveling solo definitely has it perks. I go where I want without worrying about dragging others along. My long lakeside meditation this morning was refreshing and freeing as well. I’m able to take more of the experience in without worrying if anyone else is having a good time.
Dont’t get me wrong, I love traveling with others. Sharing these experiences with someone else would have its perks as well, but everything happens for a reason. I was meant to do this on my own, learn more about myself, and be more open to possibilities.
The leap I took this afternoon is a perfect example of what this trip means. As I stood on the edge and heard a countdown start behind me, of course I was nervous. It was high up, chilly water rushed below, I was only attached by one rope. I had to make the decision on my own whether to jump or not. I guess I could have been pushed off if I took too long to move, but I never gave anyone the chance. Before I knew what I was doing I was airbourne. It was a feeling I’ve never felt before. Complete weightlessness, not like the stomach tightening I expected. Then there were the bounces. Flying back up halfway to the bridge and falling again. I felt graceful as I floated up and down, and I think this is the first time sound came from my mouth. All I do know is my mouth must have been open the whole time because I inhaled so much fresh mountain air, my chest still tingles 6 hours later.
It all starts with nerves, trying something new is not always the easiest thing to do. Sometimes you just can’t think about what can go wrong, but instead just free your mind and fall. It’s not bravery, it’s free will, and so far it’s been pretty freeing for me.